Sunday, February 7, 2010 { 23:55 }

hi..

im not the best there is
im far from perfect
and i am great when i am good
but can you take me when im not??

im sorry i made a bad week worse..

im insensitive
i know..
and i am sorry..

but sorry wont cut it all the time will it??

i dunno,
maybe im just not good enough..

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Tuesday, February 2, 2010 { 19:15 }



i love nuggets.. period

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Friday, January 29, 2010 { 01:05 }

Girls don't like boys,
Girls like cars and money..
Boys will laugh at girls when they're not funny..

its a matter of through analysis and personal opinion.. its that simple.. really..

this has been playing around in my head for quite sometime actually..
maybe this is the right time to put my thoughts into words..

like what i have to sae?? do read and deliberate, dont argue.. cause i dont really need your opinion.. this is the wae i see things.. for now at least...

hate me?? just read anywae, now that you are already here.. even if it gives you one more reason to hate me.. i dont really care.. either wae.. id still be heard and i would have wasted a part of your dae!!

ready??

EXTRACT: because chances are, she needs another broken heart like you need a hole in your head.

TRANSLATION: boys are assholes, girls are vengeful

footnote: frin, i dont mean to diss you.. i just felt like it proves my point.. somewhat..
i mean you no disrespect..

i'll be nice and start this right..

im a guy.. yet i dont think we are the ultimately superior to girls in everything..
yes we are granted brute and leadership roles, but when time calls for it..
this "advantage" of ours will be rendered useless when the task at hand requires sensitive finesse and deligent unwaiveing patience..

girls.. traditionally gentle and demure.. easy to please yet quick to offend.. but on the flipside they have a huge forgiving heart.. often mistaken as a sign of weakness.. they are tested and exploited time and again.. but be warned.. hell hath no fury like the scorn of a woman..

case in point

are guys assholes??

sadly.. yes..
all guys ARE assholes
in one wae or another,
every guy is an asshole in his own right..

are all guys really the same??

again.. yes..
if you are that big of an idiot to keep falling for the same kind of guy..

boys arent all generically the same..
i mean.. yes we all have two heads and more often than not..
we prefer to let the smaller one do all the thinking.. (yes go on ahead, sae im disgusting but whats true is true)
but apart from that one thing..
we are not all alike.. (i sure like to think not)

boys, more of like..
falls into categories...
there is the bonified jackass
and the mister nice guy..
(keep in mind that we are assholes nontheless)

the jackass..
well..
believe it or not
girls in general actually find it easier to fall for these guys..
the slicker-than-grease-born-handsome-smooth-talker-motherfuckers..
why??
because these guys know how to swoon a girl off her feet where she stands..
they know that they can make girls melt..
so they capitalize and take full advantage...
right on!!

can you blame them??
any one with a brain will take what hes got and cash it in..
nobody wants to play poker and not get a dime out of it..
right??

but ladies and gentlemen..
what brings tears to the eyes,
is that these seemingly helpless girls..
are the ones who got themselves into their perils..

they know that these guys are not worth the sweet words leaking from their honey lips..
they bloody hell know it for a fact..
that these guys will just end up hurting them..
yet they dive head first after them..

why, you might ask??
because to a girl..
if im with him..
id be the talk of town
and all my girlfriends will be soo jealous..
or..
look!! i got him.. he belongs to me.. that proves im better than you can ever dream..

right now another song comes to mind..

Tell me what's the reason that you hold on
When you know that dude
Has a whole wall of them just like you..

is any singular party to shoulder all the blame??

but what about mr right??
girls question the world..
why are the good ones either taken, gay or broke??
in truth..
everyone likes a bad boy..
who wants to end up with mommy's boy??
any takers??

are girls are vengeful??

this is a given..
i wont sugar coat my answer..
its a flat out..
yes..
period

girls forgive.. but they never forget.. be it months even years later..
they will remember how you have scratched and ripped their open heart..
but how can they not??
after years of experience..
meeting jerk after jerk after jerk...

girls never fight fair..
girls can gossip all day long..
and turn a "i think" into hard facts..
and no.. im not exagerating...

girls can be nice and pretend to love each other..
when in fact they hate the very idea that they even share the same air..
but when a common enemy comes..
they will present a united front to crush the outsider..
but still hate each other inside..

when treated well..
she will be the wind in our sail
when scorned..
she will be the storm that swallows you whole and spit you back out without so much as a paddle..

be warned boys..

FOOD FOR THOUGHT: a man will alwaes be the head of a house.. but the women is the neck and can turn the head to the wae she wants it to.. but without a head itself, what good is a stubby neck??

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Wednesday, January 27, 2010 { 00:50 }

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of which has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing,
So hypnotizing
I am captivated

shit happens.. all the time..

ok..
this one will be tad personal
its based on my experience
ready??

instinct
everyone has it..
young and old..
that strange feeling you get in your guts
when you feel like something will go wrong..

maybe it is a mode of self defence that god has given us..
maybe it is another self-fulfilling prophecy..
maybe it is a bit of both..

i dont have the answer..

all i do noe is..
its there...

every year
round the time my birthdae comes..
something bad alwaes happens..
if not before..
then sometime after..
but it will happen..

this year..
i sized myself for it..
last week..
the feelings start..
something bad is about to go down..

yesterdae
i got knocked by a cab

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Friday, January 22, 2010 { 00:35 }

oh happy day!!

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Monday, January 18, 2010 { 01:59 }

i hate mondays - because its the start of another long week
i hate tuesdays - because yesterday was a long long day
i hate wednesdays - because im still not halfway through
i hate thursdays - because after all that trouble i still have half a ways to go
i hate fridays - because it takes too long to get to the end of the day
i hate saturdays - because it alwaes seem to end too quickly, when you're just starting to have fun
i hate sundays - because tomorrow would be a monday

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Sunday, January 17, 2010 { 04:54 }

oh baby you
you got what i need
but you say im just a friend
but you say im just a friend
cause i can be your, fantasy
but you say im just a friend
but you say im just a friend

im out yo!!
go on without me
im not worth it...
NOT!!

lets do thought-speak again
topic of (my) choice: FRIENDS

FRIEND: a person attached to another by feelings or affection or personal regard.
origin: to love

ok..
so now we all noe what a friend is..
on to more pressing questions..

WHO is your friend??

have you ever wondered??
or am i the only one who thinks about these questions?? (i hope not)

so you might come up to sae,
hey!! lets not ask these questions..
cause we cant control who likes (our friends) and who hates (enemies, of course) us..
why bother about things that we have no control over??
right.. i agree..

let me put this the other wae around then..

are you a friend?? (not necessarily to me)

how much are you willing to give to a friend??
what are you gonna do when he gets into shit??
what if its because of you he is in shit in the first place and you get away with it clean??
how long are you willing to listen before you start telling your own stories??
how often have you ratted him out after promising to bring his secrets to the grave??
how much do you really trust your friend to leave yourself bare??
when was the last time you were honest to him??
do you really love him??

how much of a friend are you??

footnote: im using 'him' cause its easier than to keep typing 'him/her' all the time

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