chapter one hundred: return of the emo kid
things i do when im depressed

1. cut myself

though i dont do it anymore.. id sae this was the best outlet i had..
flowing blood.. my blood.. gave me a grip on spinning the world.. my world..

2. take long walks

i still love taking walks.. id walk all the wae around.. id walk from home to the beach if i could..
i like walking at nite.. cause there are stars in the sky.. i love stars..

3. bake

ahh.. my favourite.. though i cant stand eating even a single slice.. baking it is a whole different story.. baking requires attention.. it helps to be distracted from life once a while..

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chapter ninety nine: word game
hi..

words i use everydae (well almost everydae)

A - anuh (as in, mane nak anuh)

B - buto!! (as in, when i wanna call you)

C - cheebye!! (as in, when i call and you don't listen)

D - don't (as in, really yo.. DON'T)

E - eee (as in, eee palapuki!!)

F - fuck!! (as in, let's face it, this is the best word ever made)

G - get (as in, get out of my face!! you flying fucked up fuck)

H - hell (as in, hell if i knew yo!!)

I - i (as in, illy)

J - jyeah!! (as in, jyeah!!)

K - kimak!! (as in, when you piss me off)

L - love (as in, you)

M - mak (as in, mak kau peh longkang!!)

N - no!! (as in, when i make you say please)

O - ouh (as in, when i pretend that i understand)

P - pfft!! (as in, when you fail to amuse me)

Q - queen (as in, of my heart)

R - right-on!! (as in, when you catch my drift)

S - sucker!! (as in, the first thing i think of when i look at you)

T - true (as in, when i agree)

U - urm (as in, when i dont really noe what to sae)

V - very (as in, very)

W - wow!! (as in, whoa!! i didnt see that coming)

X - (who the hell uses x words?? seriously..)

Y - yo!! (as in, when i wanna sae hi)

Z - zoom (as in, it was that fast yo)

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chapter ninety eight: till death do us part??
if my life were water
you could see me quickly running dry

if my life were sand
you could see me blown all over

if my life were time
you could see my hours stretched into seconds

if my life were to be without you
damn girl
that wont be much left of me to see

maybe i have grown dependent on you..
maybe i take you for granted..
maybe i am bad for you..
but i dont care..
i love you and i want to make you all mine..
no one should be able to ever take you away from me
i wont let them anyhow..

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chapter ninety seven: whats true is true
hi..

im not the best there is
im far from perfect
and i am great when i am good
but can you take me when im not??

im sorry i made a bad week worse..

im insensitive
i know..
and i am sorry..

but sorry wont cut it all the time will it??

i dunno,
maybe im just not good enough..

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chapter ninety six: i love nuggets


i love nuggets.. period

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