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chapter twenty seven: obsessions and confessions
i soo wanna go out..i wanna see you and hold you.. actually looking at you would be enough.. to hold your eyes.. just inches from mine... that would be my heaven.. have i told you that you have amazing eyes?? no one is perfect.. yes.. you are right.. but to me you are close to it.. well.. my judgement may be very well biased.. but.. there just cant be anyone else.. especially not ''i-i''.. please.. forgive me for that one mistake.. 1-4-3 Labels: for use of better word, pornstar dailies chapter twenty six: wheels of change
the wheels of change are set in motion..and for now.. things seem not to be spinning my wae.. but all change is good right?? we supposed to see it in possitive light.. right love?? change is inevitable.. the only constant in the world is change.. embrace change.. for it came with the intention of better-ing us.. if all this is true.. why is it still soo hard at times to accept.. why do i continue to fight.. to start another chain of changes.. to alter the course that has been set in play.. why?? maybe i am too stuborn to simply sit and follow what i've been told.. maybe the only wae i learn is when i fall face down.. by which it is already too late.. as usual.. Labels: for use of better word, pornstar dailies chapter twenty five: holding back
trust is such a frail but powerful force..abused just one time too many... i have trusted all.. but it seems i must practise restrain now.. for now.. i trust no one... none from the outside world.. hate me if you may.. for i could care less.... i have said it.. and it shall be done.. till i find fit.. none of your eyes i shall meet... i am alone in the dark.. and you see nothing of me... so please.. stop your words of hate.. for i do you no wrong... if i did.. best believe i intended no such evil... i m sorry.. Labels: for use of better word, pornstar dailies chapter twenty four: curtain calls
baby v..i am such a dick.. what is wrong with me.. is it that time for me oreadi?? so soon?? why?! why now.... why ever!! i have made soo many promises.. and broken most of them... the only one i havent.. is my habit of slashing... i wont break that one... that im certain... i need a do over.. desperately... with myself in priority.. i need to change my ways... i hate the life im living now... i hate being alive... i have to wake up from this nightmare.. now.. 30 day evaluation test: "boy.. the last time you said you would change.. you actually did... you changed.. FOR WORSE!! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!! I THOUGHT YOU WANTED TO BE A BETTER PERSON!! ARE YOU TRYING TO PROVE EVERYONE RIGHT?? THAT YOU ARE JUST ALL TALK AND NO GO.. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU.. WHEN EVERYTHING TURNS BAD.. IT IS ALL ON YOU.. I TRIED SHOWING YOU THE GUIDED PATH.. YOU JUST WONT LISTEN.. REFUSED TO LISTEN.. YOU LET YOUR BALLS THINK FOR YOU DIDNT YOU?? you FUCKING IDIOT!! Labels: for use of better word, pornstar dailies |