my name is reef wilkins marley..

and i am an addict..

there..

ive said it

and NOTHING has changed..

this opening up to public thing is shit!!

but it is true..

i am an addict..

no im not a druggie

im not an alcoholic

i dont even like the taste of alcohol let alone that it is a sin..

shame on you if you a muslim and still have the audacity to drink!!

i smoke, yeah.. sue me!!

i do too much of "people watching" for my own good..

but hey, inspiration comes best when it comes in the form of your mistakes.. not mine..

i didnt tell you to dress like that..

or to have a face that resembles a horse..

wise man said: a fool learns from his own mistake, a genius from another's.. forget those who dont learn at all..

but what is really disturbing (to others, i dont give a damn really)..

is that i am addicted to series..

a-hell-lot of series..

i can go nuts if an episode gets postponed..

or delayed..

id freak!!

id feel like a whole week of wait has been wasted!!

yeahh.. sure id just go watch sumthing else..

but i didnt get to watch what i wanted to..

what i really, REALLY wanted to..

i alwaes get these thoughts that, if i die before next week..

i wont get to noe what happens next..

how it all ends..

its soo bad that i fear that most about death..

dear god!!

please dont take me before i find out what happens in the next episode..

PLEASE!!

hi,

my name is reef wilkins marley

i am an addict

AND LOVING IT!!

later,

man: what??

brilliant huh??

lets get to it then..

baby its been awhile!!

i noe i said id come back sooner..

but hey!! its me, you noe??

im alwaes late.. but id never make you wait..

heh..

ive soo missed you..

actually a couple of times i thought of coming back..

to lie in the folds of your familiar arms..

to complain and brag and pretend that the world is mine again..

pretend that people actually care enough to actually still take five minutes off their busy schedule doing nothing productive to actually "listen"..

but hey..

i guess its time..

ive held my peace long enough..

dear bitch,

yes this goes out to you..

im not honoring you by taking time to write about you as if you are all that..

im doing this for me..

so dont get all "im all that" on me ayite..

what can i sae..

if youre it, youre it..

you noe??

i try time and again to see you in a different light..

with eyes untainted by social perception..

unheard of gossip and hate-speech..

but damn!!

you just had to go get in my face again..

cant you just leave quietly.. tail between legs..

i mean, seriously..

you ass has been handed to you the last time..

and you still have the nerve to show that snotty nose of yours..

claiming to still be on top when it is soo clear that you cant take the view..

please..

just please..

enough with the arrogance..

before all this you were just a chewed piece of clot..

without any bones..

used, spit out..

lifted, only then to be thrown..

and before even that you were just unknown..

yet now..

now you have the damn arrogance to claim that you made it on your own??

applause for the ones who got sold out..

for they too had it coming..

for thinking they could get a monkey to do their bidding..

for thinking that they could churn you into a pot of gold..

inflate their egos and accomplish personal agenda..

maybe birds of a feather, do flock together..

enough with the arrogance..

this is not sumthing for you to sae,

hey, come and try to fill my shoes, i'll just be out and on my wae..

dont you realize this isnt even yours to be given away??

the arrogance..

we cant all be winners

but hey.. we improve anywae..

who's to sae we aint good..

cause though we got knocked down..

only you got washed away..

dont pretend like it is your decision to leave..

cause we all know you cant afford to stay..

later,