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chapter seventy five: subcultural effects
life in the the worldin our world is simple we live simply by routine it helps us keep track of what we do and if we fall relative to time but more often than not we sigh out loud saying "it's complicated, you wont understand" but in real fact it really is very simple.. it is our fear the fear of being ridiculed to be judged to seem inadequate that stops us from speaking plainly.. it is only natural to feel this fear.. we all do it i do.. we judge others over our own insignificance when we trample upon the grieving souls of others, our bestfreinds our bretheren our fathers and mothers we feel superior stronger that we (seemingly) we smart enough to avoid the pit falls that the distressed had took.. time and again we choose to take the route set ahead for us by people we do not even acknowledge we live the dreams of our elders dreams that they alone could not undertake for they lived life the way their parents would have wanted and the vicious cycle goes.. the world today is set on the foundation of destructive yet necessary subcultures living each day.. religiously by "the way" to be accepted to be considered "part of us" to not be ostracised alone and dejected.. yet each day we strive to be an individual to stand out among the crowd to have our own voice but time and again we break our promises of our mornings we choose to return to "the way" as it is always easier.. we simply choose to follow a set path rather than find our own.. because that is what we are taught what our parents, and their parents before them are thought.. it is the way the world operates.. we want that which isn't ours but we are so afraid of letting go of what we already own we want to have new ideas but refuse to be labeled, a student to be under the scrunity of one higher person superior complexion that is what we aim for isnt it?? to be a cut above the rest.. but why?? Labels: for use of better word, pornstar dailies poetry in motion: through my eyes
come on near take a peekyou play hide, i'll play seek just for your joys i’ll play weak let’s pretend we are friends leave today, happily ever after again i sit on my bed crying in my head i know that thoughts, manifest to something great yet why am I feeling all depressed keep wallowing around of late i’ve been kicked to the dirt have I been hurt nursed my bruises licked my wounds jump back to the rhyme, in sync to the tune but my mind sidetracked back on thinking of you why can’t I just let you go have you not told me you didn’t want me so why am I still thinking of you when in my life I have something new your name in bold, on a slate the love we shared has twisted to hate none on you all on me as I held on to our fallen destiny i crush my heart, just to be free to rise from the fall of abyss, infinity come on near take a peek you play hide, i'll play seek just for your joys i’ll play weak let’s pretend we are friends leave today, happily ever after again i'm sick of this lying always pretending to fake a smile, always seem that I’m laughing i don’t need all your words not the sweet never when you intend to hurt cause I am strong all alone get what I want want all that I own i never ask to be special all I want is to win, to be crowned with a medal just to make mother proud to have his name, out of the cloud why is it so hard for you to see that all I want, is to be me get your face out of mine when you are out of sight, you’re out of mind come on near take a peek you play hide, i'll play seek just for your joys i’ll play weak let’s pretend we are friends leave today, happily ever after again Labels: cut throat suicide chapter seventy four: are we really??
I SWEAR AND CURSE ALOT.. DEAL WITH ITthis world is sick and twisted.. a huge fucking twisted lie.. and we are living in it!! living it too for christ sake.. if you are too slow to get what im pointing at.. its this.. what does that make us all?? US.. THE FUCKING VERMIN LIVING THIS WRETCHED WAE OF LIFE.. go on take a wild guess.. a stab in the dark if you will.. guessed yet?? we are sick bastards.. really.. WE ARE.. we get kicks from watching other people fall and fail.. we are at our best when we humiliate others.. when we do a deed to edge others out.. why must we live dae to dae.. trying to prove things of little or no substance to others.. is it really important that we are deemed worthy in their eyes?? have wea really stooped that low?? as people sae.. it is the wae of the world.. accept it.. well i sae fuck it.. fuck all this shit.. i dont want it.. i dont want your shit.. or your sympathy.. never in a million years, your wae of life.. if you even call it a life.. you want to "just accept it" well fucking accept this.. THIS IS MY GOD DAMNED FORSAKEN LIFE I LIVE IT THE WAE I WANT IT.. EVEN IF GOD FORBID ME FROM THE GATES OF HEAVEN, ID STILL DO THIS MY WAE.. ITS THE BEST AND ONLY WAE I NOE HOW.. I DONT DONT DO THINGS JUST BECAUSE YOU THINK ITS BAD FOR ME.. I DONT GIVE A DAMN FUCKING FUCK!! REMEMBER THIS.. ITS MY CHOICE.. AND WHAT YOU THINK DONT MATTER.. FOR GOD SO WILLITH, HE LET ME SO.. (dear god almighty, i beg your guidence and strength for i am weak against my opressors.. though they have nothing on me, they grow relentless.. dear god, only to you i humbly kneel and beg.. dear god, guide me for i believe.. amin) if im gonna fall on my face id fall knowing where i go wrong.. not with what you think is right or wrong.. doesnt anyone else think that our subcultural wae of life is wrong?? is there really no one else?? DOESNT MEAN IF YOU ARE OLDER YOU ARE ALWAES RIGHT.. DOESNT MEAN YOU ARE YOUNGER YOU CAN GET AWAY WITH ANYTHING.. and one more thing.. (while im venting out my woes..) it doesnt mean if you talk behind my back.. i wont come round to noe.. a word of caution.. stay away from me least you wannna have a go.. im not saying im that big of a fighter.. but i am not one to back down.. and should i fall.. i shall fall knowing i did my part in weeding you out of the lives of all those around.. in my own wae.. i noe i did my part make everthing better.. because then, everyone will noe.. thats it.. im spent.. .period. Labels: for use of better word, pornstar dailies |