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chapter twenty one: updates updates
damn!!its been soo long that i updated you baby v.. yes.. i decided to call you, my dear blogg "baby v".. you like it dont you?? im glad you do.. ok soo.. school is super dull.. thank god it seems to fly by everydae.. every lesson last only an hour.. and in that one hour.. i get to learn one topic.. one topic per dae.. sumtimes.. its less than one topic.. but still.. shit is hard.. got to think fast.. or get left behind.. it seems soo competitive.. baby v.. no one seems to care about me anymore.. or at least they dont show it.. and they are hiding it gud.. i long for affection.. i long for the touch of her hand.. you noe how i feel rite?? i love her soo much.. i barely see her now.. i miss her smile.. i miss her.. i miss her hug.. i just miss her soo much.. baby v.. if i miss her soo much.. then why do i abuse her when we do get the chance to meet?? i poke fun at her.. i threaten her.. i call her names.. i deliberately annoy her.. why v.. why?? im such a jackass.. and baby v.. im soo lost now.. i love competing.. i love being out there.. to win... you noe?? but lately.. shit has been hard.. damn hard.. i get knocked down even befor i try pushing myself up.. and i get knocked down hard.. more than half the time.. i wish to leave all this behind.. i question myself.. why i am doing this to myself.. choosing to put myself through hell dae in dae out.. why v?? ive lost my direction.. my purpose.. everything.. i need an outlet.. i need it now.. Labels: for use of better word, pornstar dailies |