chapter seventeen: pornstar's hyper tease
so it begins...
just two more weeks of this and im through..
no more major events..
for the year at least..

after this..
i have one last game..
to curtain calls for year 2008..
closing event should be a breeze..
compared to this one..
right boys??

distractions-distractions..
coming from all angles aint it??
too much..
too fast..
when all seems to go well..
everything sets on a downward spiral...
and when you were just starting to see the our smiles..
our rare smiles..
smiles of satisfaction...
all is taken away..
is this another of your test, dear god??

come people..
lets pray..
dear god..
i love you..
i thank you that you have blessed me all my life...
i realize my position in your greatness..
for i am but a speck..
tiny..
but for you are gracious..
listen to my plea..
i am nothing without you blessing..
dear god..
i soo badly want to win..
and i realize that no matter how hard..
and how much i try..
dear god..
please..
grant me my one dire wish..
help me win..
let me win..
i am ever so gratefull to you..
you are the omnipotent..
and you are the giver of gifts..
i pray to you in my most humbled state..
i pray to you in the eye of the public..
i am nothing..
nothing without you..
dear god..
listen to my plea..
amin..

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