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chapter three: my struggle
dae in dae outi twist and turn rolled in the sands.. sprinting out of the waves as they crash mercilessly against my knees and thighs constantly threatening to push me over.. though a sign of the odds stacked against me.. as the tide pulls back into the seas.. my spirit and strength goes with it.. testing how much longer i can fight and resist constant nagging loud bosting from around shrinking me eating me from the inside oh.. i soo wish to prove others wrong to show myself better than them i am but to weak to even stand on my own feet let alone push them out of my face.. am i that insignificant?? am i worth soo little?? am i more of a hype than i would like to think?? am i all talk-and-no-show?? a fluke?? a fugly fluke?? am i that ignorant of others' mockery?? that i continue to shame myself.. show my weakness repeatedly.. and give others room to make muse of me.. why does this have to be?? why do i alwaes fail to see?? why do i bury holes only to dig deeper ones.. those more deadly.. many a time i tried telling you but the harder i try to make you see.. the worse it gets for me.. sumtimes i love you, at times i don't but i do countless times i confessed how much i loved you.. yet you remain quiet pretending not to understand, how much i want you never knowing how much it shatters my heart.. to see you let others compete for the prize that is you.. when you know none of them will keep true.. yet you know of the faith in my heart.. a thousand times over i'd relive the wait for you.. if only you could look into my heart you'd see how much i love you how you'd see it bleed.. everytime you run away.. running for the fear of being hurt again.. as of past love.. scars running soo deep.. that would seem never to fade.. will winning change anything?? would you accept me then?? a nod of acknowledgement would do.. a pat on the back.. a kiss between the eyes.. is that too much to ask?? Labels: for use of better word, pornstar dailies |