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chapter one: i am..
the dae after NDPsoo ndp went smooth.. or at least i think soo lah.. but thats not what i want to blog about.. i can rant all i want abt ndp.. but then it would be boring.. whats the point rite?? moving on thinking abt it.. i will miss the people im soo used to seeing every week yes.. the faggots get on my nerves alot.. with their petty quesions and constant complaints.. but there are few who i have taken liking to.. not emotionally nor sexually like on a friendly basis.. honest.. people might sae that it is impossible for me.. to make friends.. for the genuine sake of friendship.. not taking any form of interest in them.. what the fuck.. do i look like i have my brains on my dick?? wait.. shit.. dont answer that.. soo yeah.. i think im gonna miss having ndp everyweek.. but as everyone noes.. time will take away everthing.. all the memories the details the emotions shared that seems soo important now.. will all be soo distant soo yesterdae.. time.. what an ass.. takes as much as it gives.. never one to give in no second chance.. no re-takes no do-overs.. its alwaes now-or-never do-or-die why must everything be in such a rush.. nothing ever seems to blossom at our will.. its either too soon or too late.. if you are too late.. you are an asshole.. if you are too early.. by god, you better have patience.. sit and wait for god is with those who wait rite?? if it is worth having it is worth waiting for.. and i will wait.. cause you are worth it.. .."3 years or more".. what kind i was asked "what kind of person i am" thinking back now.. i have one word to answer that liar!! yes.. i am a bloody liar.. i hate to admit it.. but i noe it is true.. not obsessively though.. but i do tend to lie.. i tend to make myself bigger den who i really am.. alwaes trying to give the political right answer.. trying too hard to impress.. but.. i cannot help it.. look im not trying to justify anything.. but i believe that everything happens for a reason.. and this is mine.. i am a people pleaser.. a yes man.. even if it kills me.. id try my best to sae yes to you.. for any favour.. need my help.. i wont turn you away.. that is the wae i am.. and how ive alwaes been.. sumtimes.. i dont even noe why i help others out.. "yes'' just escapes my mouth.. i am quick to promise.. but i am a man of my word.. i might lie to your face.. but rest assured that i will keep my promises.. contradicting.. right?? wrong!! see.. it refers to two totally different things.. i lie to make myself bigger (more impressive if you must) but i never lie about doing things i cannot.. i pride myself in this.. i "walk-the-talk" soo.. answering the question.. what kind of person am i.. i now answer that i am the word worthy liar.. go figure.. Labels: pornstar dailies |